After Putting It Down

         I do not really know why god loves to push people around, but I do believe that god also loves to lift people when they fall down to the very bottom. Yeah... People come and go. It is a lot better to leave before things go more wrong. I know deeply inside that I am still not ready for this moment, but thanks mom that your child still survive. It is crazy that you feel not very satisfied to live alone yet happily. LOL it is obvious that I am happier and healthier now than when I stayed in the gap. However, I still feel the angel living inside. I want to keep this warm and confident feeling inside forever and ever even she is on another earth.